Tuesday, November 1, 2011

I don't want to do this anymore

I am really doubting this whole half marathon training thing. We are now just 9 short weeks from race day and I haven't done more than 6 miles. The last two weekends I haven't done a long run. Furthermore, the last four weeks during the week I've missed runs like crazy. I have plenty of excuses, just pick one - working 50-60 hours a week, illness, traveling to Atlanta two weeks in a row. But when it comes down to it, my heart just hasn't been in it. When I have had the time to do the training, I just don't want to. I'd rather lay around all day and watch 5 episodes of Dexter (I may or may not have done this while I was sick last weekend....ok I did).

Thankfully I have 3 friends counting on me to show up on race day so I won't give up, but what the hell am I going to do to turn this around? I don't want to be one of "those people" who don't train for a race, show up on race day, have a miserable 13.1 miles and hate every moment of something that should be rewarding.

I feel more discouraged than ever because I feel like I've lost ground over the last 2.5 months. I was so good about working out over the summer. But lately? Not so much. I know 90% of the problem is work, but that's not changing any time soon so I can only figure out a way to deal with it.

I'll let you know when I figure it out.

All I can do is get through this week. This week, despite not setting a toe in the gym yet, I WILL do all 3 training runs. Tomorrow 3 miles, Friday 3 miles and Sunday 7 miles.

Even though I don't really want to.


Maren said...

Sorry you're struggling with your workouts lately. It's hard fitting it in into our lives for sure, I know how that is. Good luck on turning the boat around, you can do it!

Luanne said...

I know how you feel - same feeling, same race. But you can do this - you're in a good position, just keep at those long runs on the weekend! If nothing else, I'll meet you at the start line!!

Heather said...

Emily, you have done many amazing things. The one that has always inspired me the most is the way you believe in yourself. So remember that--remember that you believe in yourself. Remember that you are not doing this to set an amazing PR at every half (although that can be fun), but to challenge yourself and enjoy the strength and toughness of your own body. And, remember this (which I read on my new best friend, Pinterest):
No matter how slow you are running, you're beating the pants off the people sitting on the couch.

You can do this half marathon. You can rock it.

Big Life, Little Blog said...

@Luanne - we should meet up before or after the race if you want to.

@Heather - THANK YOU! Your comment made me tear up and is true. So, thank you!

Anonymous said...

You r such an inspiration!

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