Sunday, April 14, 2013

Weigh in & A Dark Place

Weight Last Week: 264.6

Weight This Week: 263.4

1.2 pounds LOST this week

Lowest Weight Recorded: 232.2 on 4/22/12

66 pounds lost since June 2010

Sure, a technical loss, but it's been a sh*t pile of a week. Trying CrossFit on Tuesday left me more sore than I have ever being in my life - today is the first day I can *kinda* sit down without wincing in pain.

Is that an excuse? Sure it is. If I would have been out and active - even if my quads, shoulders and abs all wanted to die - I probably would have recovered earlier.

I just feel like I am in a vicious cycle of emotional eating and not wanting to do anything about it.

It's spring, the weather is nice, I should feel refreshed and recharged and instead I have to talk myself into getting myself out of bed in the morning.

I know this post is negative and it's not all "butterflies and puppies" so I'm sorry to those of you who are looking for inspiration. But this is what's real and I know I'm not alone, so I'd love for you to comment if you've experienced this vicious cycle of regaining weight-depression-emotional eating. If so, how did you get out of it?


Karen said...

Getting off all wheat , grains, and processed sugar. It took 8-10 weeks off that crap food and the fog cleared. I stopped eating emotionally, started digging how great food tasted and switched up to a better emotional, body, and over all clear state.

Food , my mood , and slippery slope thinking still try to draw me back there. I don't go. I draw a circle around it and it don't go back there. It's the disease pulling me back in.

I've been "food sober" since July 2011 and at goal weight (paleo /primal template) since Feb 2012. It took me 40 years of figuring that out. That foods were triggering me.

You can read my archives. I blog frequently about what works now compared to what did not work in the past You are with it, woth figuring this thing out. Safe travels. Karen P

Anonymous said...

I just recently started reading your blog so I don't know what exactly worked for you in the past. But I would encourage you to think about how you got to your lowest weight last year. What worked then? What didn't? Each of us is so different in what works with our body type, exercise likes/dislikes/capabilities, food preferences, etc. for example, I have a wonderful friend who hit her goal weight with a low carb diet and a personal trainer. I tried low carb and was cranky and deprived feeling all the time. Doesn't work for me. Plus I don't have the funds for the trainer! WW works for me b/c I don't feel deprived. Rediscover what works for YOU!

I would encourage you to just take a step at a time. Force yourself out of bed and take a walk/run/swim/whatever. You won't feel like doing it but will feel so much better after you're finished. Do that each day until its no longer a chore for you to get out of bed and more of a joy.

marisol said...

I am right there with you. <3

Anonymous said...

I am so right there with you as well (even to the exact pound!) It is horrible, isn't it? I'm thinking of joining WW even though I've never been successful, but I feel I need some accountability. I think the main thing (for me, anyway) is finding ways to live a healthy life without setting myself up for failure. I often go to extremes, which always leaves me feeling worse about myself for not living up to my "plans". You could always try building a habit by committing to 15 mins of exercise and one healthy eating option every day for 21 days straight. That way you build up your confidence in yourself - don't focus on the number just focus on getting back into the habit and frame of mind required to take on weight loss? Then you could start getting more focused and increase your goals etc. Weight loss is such a mental challenge I find often that it is my inner voice that prevents me from doing...anything!

Pete Olson said...

It's not about losing's about gaining life. As a former athlete-turned-obese-smoker, for the last year and a half, I have been on a journey to a life of physical health and, quite frankly, happiness that I couldn't find even while savoring two cheeseburgers before pulling out of the McDonald's parking lot.

You're doing the right thing with your blog, as accountability is key...but remember that this isn't about eating vs. not eating, and it's not about being heavy or light; it's about life vs. death.

Let me say that's life vs. death. On November 11, 2011, I chose to starting living again (, and I am happier than I think I've ever's a tough ride sometimes, but it's a great ride!

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