Sunday, August 21, 2011

Weigh in - Guilty Edition

Last week's weight: 256.4

This week's weight: 256.0

0.4 lbs LOST

73.4 pounds lost since June 2010

In the interest of full disclosure, I weighed myself twice this morning. The first time, at 5:30 am, registered 257.2. I went back to bed. When I woke up for the second time, I weighed again and took the 256 number. I feel like I cheated on my math test.

I also feel completely crappy about my weigh in. Not because I didn't lose as much as I wanted to, but because I know I overindulged last night and I didn't have to. I went out to dinner with a couple friends and although the food was SO GOOD, I ate TOO MUCH of it. I knew I was eating too much as I was doing it, but I didn't care. The food was too good for me to care.

I gained 3 lbs since checking my weight yesterday morning. Yesterday's weight was 253 (even after eating a gyro and fries after my run Friday night). Today's is well above that. I know it's water weight. I know I can be back to the low 250's tomorrow if I drink plenty of water today, but I hate that I allowed it to happen.

Lately, I haven't had control in eating out with friends or in social situations where food is plentiful. I used to. I somehow lost 70 lbs continuing to eat out and enjoy gatherings with friends. I'm not sure what happened. I guess somewhere along the way I got sick of being the one that ate a salad while everyone else enjoyed the fried pickles. I don't want to be the friend that can't share appetizers or desserts because "I'm on a diet" (I'm not dieting).

In the end it is what it is, and I just have to work to correct the bump in the road I'm experiencing with this. It's comforting that I'm not alone. There are others out there that are experiencing the same things I am with their weight loss journey. In fact, Skinny Emmie just wrote about it last night.

At least there's power in numbers, right?


Anonymous said...

"The food was too good for me to care."

Isn't that so difficult to deal with? Lately, I've been focusing on how wonderful certain foods are, and I just can't help myself. Because of my stomach issues, I can't eat many healthy things I'm used to -- veggies, beans, etc. I'm stuck with processed stuff, and I'm enjoying some of it too much.

But I'm so proud of you for everything you're doing right now -- learning about yourself, and for the running! :)

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