I'm fully expecting a 3-4 lb gain tomorrow.
Sigh, I just had to put that out there. I've done 2 of my 3 training runs (3rd is scheduled for Sunday) and I even did weights last night after my run. I'm trying to incorporate weight training 2x a week.
But my food choices, oh boy my food choices are horrendous. Coming off the flu last weekend, I was craving white, processed carbs. So that's what I ate. And now, even though my body is back to normal, I haven't gone back to healthy eating. Here's just a selection of what I've eaten over the last few days - and I'm sure I'm forgetting some of it!
Today: 2 pumpkin pancakes with a banana and butter and syrup (unmeasured)
Friday: Banana; 4 mini quiches. 2 mini cinnamon rolls, 1 mini muffin and fruit salad; Green salad with ranch dressing, yeast roll with butter, smashed potatoes, 1/2 pan fried chicken breast, 2 bites of turkey with gravy, brownie and peach cobbler; 1 snack bag chex mix, tootsie roll and another mini cinnamon roll; 2 bowls french onion soup with Swiss cheese and croutons, veggie corn dog, 2 mini chocolate candies; 1 snack bag chex mix
Thursday: Peanut butter and pumpkin butter sandwich; banana; cup of clam chowder and half turkey brie cranberry sandwich; black cherry Chobani; 4% cottage cheese with Triscuts; 2 bowls french onion soup with Swiss cheese and croutons; 1 oreo ball; 2 slices bread with pumpkin butter
Wednesday: Peanut butter and pumpkin butter sandwich; banana; cup of french onion soup with half a baguet and Swiss cheese, slice of cheese pizza with black olives; Honeycrisp apple; 4% cottage cheese with Triscuits; 2 veggie corn dogs and sweet potato fries; 1/2 cup chocolate chip ice cream in "waning" peanut butter jar (1T peanut butter?)
If you want to play Where's Waldo, try to find any veggies in my list up there. Although Wed and Thurs are bad, but Friday is by far the worst. We had an event at work and I pretty much put whatever was in front of me in my mouth.
I know I shouldn't do this, but I've already written today off. I'm heading to a Beer, Bourbon and BBQ fest downtown and I fully intend to enjoy it.
Next week. I am back on it and I am committing for the next 4 weeks to be as close to perfect as possible with both food and exercise. By committing to 4 weeks, it breaks what can be big and overwhelming into a small, manageable thing.
Showing posts with label overeating. Show all posts
Showing posts with label overeating. Show all posts
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Emotional Eating
Emotional eating is something I've done for my entire life. I think many people who suffer from obesity have had their turn with emotional eating.
When I was bored? I'd find something tasty to eat - like a pair of Swiss cake rolls (or 2).
Stressed? Mad? Sad? I always turned to food.
Happy? That was an occasion for food too.
There. was. always. food.
I don't remember much from my Biggest Loser application, but I remember one specific question that said "Food is..." and let you fill in the blank. I wrote "Food is everything. When I am sad, I turn to food. Mad - there's food for that too. Even happiness is celebrated by food."
I've done pretty good over the last 15 months to control my emotional urges towards food. My only rule for overcoming this was eat when I am hungry, do something else if I'm not.
Tonight, after a stressful week at work, I wanted nothing but a trough of fried Chinese food and to sink into my couch and not talk to a soul for the whole weekend.
Check on the first part of that. (I'm working on the whole not talking to anyone thing.)
I've had a great week food wise. Despite eating that 450 calorie cookie Tuesday, my food choices overall have been good. Exercise has been great and the scale is moving.
I knew I was choosing General Tso's chicken for the wrong reasons. Sure, I wanted it because it tastes good, but what's more - the thought of eating it was comforting. Chinese food was a staple in my "past life" and the thought of a Friday night in front of the TV with Crab Rangoon sounded like the best solution as I was driving home almost in tears from the frustration of dealing with stupidity.
(Side note: If I ever win the lottery, the first thing I'm getting is a chauffeur. Seriously.)
But I digress, I don't know where I'm going with this...confession? Maybe. But I feel better talking about it. I know making this one bad choice tonight isn't going to make me gain 6 lbs overnight and somehow eating what was probably about 1,500+ calories is not really making me feel guilty.
I feel more guilty knowing I was making the wrong decision, realizing that I was turning to emotional eating and continuing to make the wrong choice.
When I was bored? I'd find something tasty to eat - like a pair of Swiss cake rolls (or 2).
Stressed? Mad? Sad? I always turned to food.
Happy? That was an occasion for food too.
There. was. always. food.
I don't remember much from my Biggest Loser application, but I remember one specific question that said "Food is..." and let you fill in the blank. I wrote "Food is everything. When I am sad, I turn to food. Mad - there's food for that too. Even happiness is celebrated by food."
I've done pretty good over the last 15 months to control my emotional urges towards food. My only rule for overcoming this was eat when I am hungry, do something else if I'm not.
Tonight, after a stressful week at work, I wanted nothing but a trough of fried Chinese food and to sink into my couch and not talk to a soul for the whole weekend.
Check on the first part of that. (I'm working on the whole not talking to anyone thing.)
I've had a great week food wise. Despite eating that 450 calorie cookie Tuesday, my food choices overall have been good. Exercise has been great and the scale is moving.
I knew I was choosing General Tso's chicken for the wrong reasons. Sure, I wanted it because it tastes good, but what's more - the thought of eating it was comforting. Chinese food was a staple in my "past life" and the thought of a Friday night in front of the TV with Crab Rangoon sounded like the best solution as I was driving home almost in tears from the frustration of dealing with stupidity.
(Side note: If I ever win the lottery, the first thing I'm getting is a chauffeur. Seriously.)
But I digress, I don't know where I'm going with this...confession? Maybe. But I feel better talking about it. I know making this one bad choice tonight isn't going to make me gain 6 lbs overnight and somehow eating what was probably about 1,500+ calories is not really making me feel guilty.
I feel more guilty knowing I was making the wrong decision, realizing that I was turning to emotional eating and continuing to make the wrong choice.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Weigh in - Guilty Edition
Last week's weight: 256.4
This week's weight: 256.0
0.4 lbs LOST
73.4 pounds lost since June 2010
In the interest of full disclosure, I weighed myself twice this morning. The first time, at 5:30 am, registered 257.2. I went back to bed. When I woke up for the second time, I weighed again and took the 256 number. I feel like I cheated on my math test.
I also feel completely crappy about my weigh in. Not because I didn't lose as much as I wanted to, but because I know I overindulged last night and I didn't have to. I went out to dinner with a couple friends and although the food was SO GOOD, I ate TOO MUCH of it. I knew I was eating too much as I was doing it, but I didn't care. The food was too good for me to care.
I gained 3 lbs since checking my weight yesterday morning. Yesterday's weight was 253 (even after eating a gyro and fries after my run Friday night). Today's is well above that. I know it's water weight. I know I can be back to the low 250's tomorrow if I drink plenty of water today, but I hate that I allowed it to happen.
Lately, I haven't had control in eating out with friends or in social situations where food is plentiful. I used to. I somehow lost 70 lbs continuing to eat out and enjoy gatherings with friends. I'm not sure what happened. I guess somewhere along the way I got sick of being the one that ate a salad while everyone else enjoyed the fried pickles. I don't want to be the friend that can't share appetizers or desserts because "I'm on a diet" (I'm not dieting).
In the end it is what it is, and I just have to work to correct the bump in the road I'm experiencing with this. It's comforting that I'm not alone. There are others out there that are experiencing the same things I am with their weight loss journey. In fact, Skinny Emmie just wrote about it last night.
At least there's power in numbers, right?
This week's weight: 256.0
0.4 lbs LOST
73.4 pounds lost since June 2010
In the interest of full disclosure, I weighed myself twice this morning. The first time, at 5:30 am, registered 257.2. I went back to bed. When I woke up for the second time, I weighed again and took the 256 number. I feel like I cheated on my math test.
I also feel completely crappy about my weigh in. Not because I didn't lose as much as I wanted to, but because I know I overindulged last night and I didn't have to. I went out to dinner with a couple friends and although the food was SO GOOD, I ate TOO MUCH of it. I knew I was eating too much as I was doing it, but I didn't care. The food was too good for me to care.
I gained 3 lbs since checking my weight yesterday morning. Yesterday's weight was 253 (even after eating a gyro and fries after my run Friday night). Today's is well above that. I know it's water weight. I know I can be back to the low 250's tomorrow if I drink plenty of water today, but I hate that I allowed it to happen.
Lately, I haven't had control in eating out with friends or in social situations where food is plentiful. I used to. I somehow lost 70 lbs continuing to eat out and enjoy gatherings with friends. I'm not sure what happened. I guess somewhere along the way I got sick of being the one that ate a salad while everyone else enjoyed the fried pickles. I don't want to be the friend that can't share appetizers or desserts because "I'm on a diet" (I'm not dieting).
In the end it is what it is, and I just have to work to correct the bump in the road I'm experiencing with this. It's comforting that I'm not alone. There are others out there that are experiencing the same things I am with their weight loss journey. In fact, Skinny Emmie just wrote about it last night.
At least there's power in numbers, right?
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
